an alert cognitive state in which you are aware of yourself
(I just looked up the word in the dicshunery Dr Strauss gave me. SUBCONSCIOUS, adj. Of the nature of mental operations yet not present in
consciousness; as, subconscious conflict of desires) Theres more but I still dont know what it meens.
a short trip taken in the performance of a necessary task
I showed them and everyone laffed when I told them that Mr Donner said I was the best janiter and
errand boy he ever had because I like my job and do it good and never come late or miss a day exept for my operashun.
go far ahead of
The more intelligent you become the more problems you’ll have, Charlie. Your intellectual growth is going to
outstrip your emotional growth.
make confused or perplexed or puzzled
So I’ve got to come into his office twice a week now to talk about the things that
cause to lose one's composure
“No, nothings wrong. Those inkblots
uneducated in general; lacking knowledge or sophistication
I was sure they had made fun of me and tricked me when I was too
ignorant to know better.
with strained or eager attention
Charlie hunches over on his stool,
intently watching Gimpy pick up the knife and cut off a slab of dough.
not habituated to; unfamiliar with
unaccustomed to this rare moment of success.
the time between one event, process, or period and another
We’ve predicted the pattern correctly so far. We’re justified in making an
the rational investigation of existence and knowledge
It’s exciting to hear them talking about poetry and science and
philosophy—about Shakespeare and Milton; Newton and Einstein and Freud; about Plato and Hegel and Kant, and all the other names that echo like great church bells in my mind.
having your attention fixated as though by a spell
I don’t know who made it for him, or what became of it, but I see him standing there
fascinated as the string untwists and sets the rings spinning
marked by an orderly and coherent relation of parts
Even in the world of make-believe there have to be rules. The parts have to be
consistent and belong together.
clear or deep perception of a situation
“You’re beginning to see what’s behind the surface of things. What you say about the parts having to belong together—that was a pretty good
lacking grace or skill in manner or movement or performance
Suddenly, I had become clumsy and
awkward again, and when I tried to apologize I found my tongue had become too large for my mouth.
characteristic of a mother
I hated her as I had never hated anyone before—with her easy answers and
the state of needing something that is absent or unavailable
She highlighted my awkwardness, my
lack of knowledge about the right things to say and do.
touch or stroke lightly in a loving or endearing manner
She takes me into her arms, kisses and
caresses me, and I want to hold her tightly but I’m afraid.
turn away or aside
I kept my eyes
averted from the register as I brought out the tray of Eclairs and sorted out the cookies, buns, and cakes.
having life or vigor or spirit
animated and good-natured, but looking up he caught my eye, frowned and turned away.
free from evil or guilt
I asked Professor Nemur about it, and he insists that I’m an
innocent bystander and there’s no reason for me to become involved in what would be an unpleasant situation.
develop and work out fully in one's mind
mature intellectually, we may not be able to communicate. When you
mature emotionally, you may not even want me.
a history of a word
My most absorbing interests at the present time are
etymologies of ancient languages, the newer works on the calculus of variations, and Hindu history.
the quality of being intricate and compounded
People resent being shown that they don’t approach the
complexities of the problem—they don’t know what exists beyond the surface ripples.
a plan for attaining a particular goal
I asked him what he thought of the suggestion by some senators that we begin using such
tactics as “blacklisting” and reinforcement of the navicert controls that had been used in World Wars I and II, against some of the smaller nations which now oppose us.
in the state of development between puberty and maturity
The same thing happened when I tried to discuss Chaucer with an American literature specialist, questioned an Orientalist about the Trobriand Islanders, and tried to focus on the problems of automation-caused unemployment with a social psychologist who specialized in public opinion polls on
put up with something or somebody unpleasant
Did she want me to hold her that way, or was she merely
Dr. Strauss feels that emotionally I’m still in that adolescent state where being close to a woman, or thinking of sex, sets off anxiety, panic, even
cause someone to believe an untruth
He feels that my rapid intellectual development has
deceived me into thinking I could live a normal emotional life.
give extra weight to
Joe nodded, turning to
emphasize the point to Gimpy who had just come up behind him.
lower than a given reference point
It had been all right as long they could laugh at me and appear clever at my expense, but now they were feeling
inferior to the moron.
worthy of reliance or trust
You used to be a good,
dependable man—ordinary, not too bright maybe, but honest—and who knows what you done to yourself to get so smart all of a sudden.
look down on with disdain
Before, they had laughed at me,
despising me for my ignorance and dullness; now, they hated me for my knowledge and understanding.
overcome, as with emotions or perceptual stimuli
If I could reach Alice in time—without thinking about it, before it
overwhelmed me—maybe the panic wouldn’t happen.
give moral or emotional strength to
She tried to
soothe me, to tell me it didn’t matter, that there was no reason to blame myself.
extreme distress of body or mind
But ashamed, and no longer able to control my
anguish, I began to sob.