without any others being included or involved
The good news is that there are still four days left of vacation, which should clearly be devoted
exclusively to sleeping and writing to me.
having lost your bearings
So now I feel kind of strange and groggy and
disoriented, and I think my parents are going to want to do dinner tonight As a Family.
fearful expectation or anticipation
I guess there’s still this quiet pulse of
dread when I think about seeing Martin again.
someone who is considered for something
At lunch, the girls take it upon themselves to discuss and evaluate the fifty million guys they apparently think are boyfriend
prospects for me.
a disorderly outburst or tumult
Taylor and Abby burst through behind them, and there’s this huge
commotion of yelling and footsteps.
a disposition to allow freedom of choice and behavior
But Creekwood’s zero
tolerance bullying policy is enforced about as strictly as the freaking dress code.
not in keeping with what is correct or proper
“It was beyond disrespectful and
inappropriate, and I want you to know that I take this extremely seriously.”
And I realize that Ms. Albright is absolutely
“But what if I want to
stare or look at, especially with amorous intentions
“I was like—yeah. I’m gonna go
ogle soccer boys now.”
characterized by communicating beliefs or opinions
And he’s not really talking, but he has very
expressive brown eyes.
expecting with confidence of fulfillment
There’s just this thread of
anticipation that I can’t seem to quell.
overcome or allay
There’s just this thread of anticipation that I can’t seem to
highly unusual or exceptional or remarkable
So when the school day ends and nothing
extraordinary has happened, it’s a tiny heartbreak.
look with amazement
All I can do is sort of
gape at him.
a dramatic speech giving the illusion of unspoken reflection
A couple of people are arguing about Shakespeare, and then someone stands on a chair and basically bellows Hamlet’s
soliloquy into this other dude’s ear.
associated with persons who are not active in the military
Well, Blue is kind of my superhero identity, so you're really talking about my
marked by low spirits; showing no enthusiasm
And I’m feeling too heavy and
listless to get up and ask my mom.
subject to or caused by an earthquake or earth vibration
But then I get to rehearsal, and there’s this sudden
satisfied or showing satisfaction with things as they are
But Cal puts her to work, and she seems
content taping up cast photos on the wall of the atrium, next to some screenshots from the Mark Lester movie version and a super-enlarged list of the cast and crew.
orchestral music at the beginning of an opera or musical
Props are missing and people wander around partially in costume, and the various Creekwood music prodigies are in the orchestra pit running through the
And then they tell me I have to wear eyeliner, which I absolutely
a secretion in response to stress, stimulating nerve action
The exhaustion from the week falls away, and I’m carried forward by
adrenaline, laughter, and applause.
lacking nothing essential, not damaged
I’m a little bit excited to be going to lunch with my stage makeup still
a plan of action adopted by an individual or social group
Something about the words “review” and “
policy” just shuts people down.
impossible to come to understand
I'm a little stuck on this Martin situation. It's almost
an indirect and usually malicious implication
We step off to the side, and Nick gets a menu to look through, and everything they serve here is an
a ghostly double that haunts its living counterpart
Whom Peter presents by saying, “Meet your
doppelganger.” But it's really a little baffling, because Alex doesn’t look like me at all.
showing a sense of shame
“I’m a junior,” I say.
“In high school,” he repeats. His arm is still around me. “How old are you?”
“Seventeen,” I whisper, feeling
serious and harsh in manner or behavior
“Simon,” says my dad, looking confused and
stern and amused all at once. “Is there something you’d like to tell us?”