reluctant

If the adjective reluctant applies to you, it means that you are undergoing some inner struggle and are unwilling or unable to decide.

The word reluctant comes from the Latin reluctantem, which means "to struggle against." These days reluctant means “unwilling.” If you’re reluctant to dance to a terrible song, you’re unwilling to shake your booty, and you might even have to struggle against your friends who try to get you on the dance floor. You might offer them a reluctant smile instead (and hope it doesn’t look like a grimace).

Definitions of reluctant
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adj not eager

“foreigners stubbornly reluctant to accept our ways”
“fresh from college and reluctant for the moment to marry him”
Synonyms:
uneager
lacking interest or spirit or animation

adj disinclined to become involved

“they were usually reluctant to socialize”
reluctant to help”
Synonyms:
disinclined
unwilling because of mild dislike or disapproval

adj unwilling to do something contrary to your custom

“a reluctant smile”
Synonyms:
loath, loth
unwilling
not disposed or inclined toward

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