ambivalent

If you can't decide how you feel about something, declare yourself ambivalent about it.

Ambivalent means "having mixed feelings about something." A Swiss psychologist named Eugen Bleuler coined the German word Ambivalenz in the early twentieth century, and it was soon imported into English. Bleuler combined the Latin prefix ambi-, meaning "both," with valentia, "strength." So etymologically speaking, if you're ambivalent you're being pulled by two equally strong things — but in practice, ambivalence often arises from caring very little either way. You might feel ambivalent about your lunch options if you have to choose between a murky stew and flavorless tofu.

Definitions of ambivalent
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adj uncertain or unable to decide about what course to follow

“was ambivalent about having children”
Synonyms:
incertain, uncertain, unsure
lacking or indicating lack of confidence or assurance